Okay, so today I’m diving into this whole “North Node square Sun” thing in my astrology chart. I’ve been feeling kinda stuck lately, like I’m not really living up to my full potential, you know? So I started poking around, trying to figure out what’s up.
First, I pulled up my birth chart online. I already knew my birth info, so that was easy. I use this one website. And there it was, plain as day: North Node in Leo, Sun in Scorpio, and a big ol’ square aspect between them.
Next, I did some digging, just browsing around, to get a basic sense of what each of these placements even meant on their own. Found some stuff about the North Node being about your life’s purpose and the direction you’re supposed to be heading. Leo’s all about creativity, being seen, and expressing yourself. My Sun in Scorpio… well, that’s about intensity, transformation, and digging deep. Already, I could kinda see how these might clash.
My Realizations
Then came the “square” part. From what I read, squares represent challenges, tension, and areas where you need to work to integrate two opposing energies. It’s not necessarily bad, but it’s definitely not a walk in the park. It’s like these two parts of me are constantly fighting.
- I realized,I tend to shy away from the spotlight(that explains a lot).I prefer working in the shadows, where you can control the sitution,and don’t have to deal with other people’s opinions.
- I started to write things down in my journal. All the ways I hold myself back, the fears I have about being judged, the times I’ve chosen the “safe” route instead of taking a risk.
- I experimented with some small, creative projects. Nothing major, just little things to get myself used to expressing myself more. I shared the new pics on my own social media, even though the thought made me a little sweaty.
- I talked to my best friend about it. Just verbalizing all this stuff, getting it out of my head and into the world, helped a ton. She’s super supportive, which is awesome.
It’s still a work in progress, obviously. This isn’t some overnight transformation. But just understanding the basic dynamic, the push and pull between my North Node and Sun, has been eye-opening. It’s like I finally have a roadmap for where I need to focus my energy. It’s not gonna be easy, but at least I know what I’m up against now. I plan to keep journaling, keep pushing myself creatively, and maybe even look into some workshops or something to help me develop these Leo *, surely and baby steps, I’m facing the reality.
