Okay, so I’ve been diving deep into astrology lately, and I wanted to really get what it means to have your Sun in the 12th house. You know, not just read about it, but actually feel it. So, I decided to do a little experiment on myself, since, well, my Sun is in the 12th house.
Getting Started
First, I pulled up my birth chart. I used to think this stuff was all mumbo jumbo, but I’ve been proven wrong… There it was, clear as day: Sun in Leo, smack-dab in the 12th house. I’ve read bits and pieces about this placement before, about it being all hidden and subconscious, but I wanted to experience it firsthand.
The Experiment
I decided to dedicate a whole week to exploring this. I wanted to see how this “hidden” energy actually played out in my day-to-day life.
- Morning Meditation: Each morning, I started with a meditation focused on connecting with my inner self. Usually, I’m rushing to check emails, but this week, I forced myself to slow down. I sat in a quiet room.
- Journaling: I’m not a big “journal” person, but I figured, how else am I going to track all this? I kept a journal by my bed and jotted down any dreams I could remember, plus any random thoughts or feelings that popped up during the day.
- Solitude and Isolation: My days I spend alone.I tried to spend more time alone than usual. This was the tough part because I’m a pretty social person. But I skipped a few social events and spent the time doing my own thing,Mostly my work and study .
- Creative Exploration: I’ve always been into creative stuff, but I tend to keep it to myself. This week, I dusted off my old guitar and spent some time painting. I didn’t care if it was good or not; I just wanted to see what would come out.
- Shadow Work: I tried some shadow work,and it was tough.
What I Noticed
Okay, so the week was…intense. Here’s the lowdown:
- The Dreams: My dreams were WILD. Lots of symbolism, stuff I couldn’t quite figure out, but definitely felt significant. I wrote down as much as I could remember, and I’m still trying to make sense of it all.
- Emotional Rollercoaster: I felt like I was all over the place emotionally. One minute I’d be super energized, the next I’d be feeling drained and withdrawn. It was like my usual Leo energy was there, but it was operating beneath the surface.
- Hidden Talents?: The creative stuff was interesting. I felt this urge to express myself, but it was almost like I was shy about it. Like, I wanted to share, but I also wanted to hide. Classic 12th house struggle, I guess.
- The Need for Retreat: Even though I was craving connection at times, the time alone was actually really valuable. I felt like I was recharging in a way that I don’t usually allow myself to.
The Takeaway
So, after a week of this, what did I learn? Well, having your Sun in the 12th house is definitely a trip. It’s like having this powerful engine (the Sun) running in a secret room (the 12th house). You know it’s there, but you can’t always see it or access it directly. It takes conscious effort to tap into that energy. It’s about going inward, exploring your subconscious, and finding ways to express yourself that feel authentic, even if they’re not always out in the open.
I’m still processing everything, but I definitely feel like I understand this aspect of my chart a lot better now. It’s not just some abstract concept; it’s a real, lived experience. And I’m kind of excited to keep exploring * I feel better, I’ll go on.
