Okay, so, I gotta tell you about this whole “sun sesquiquadrate ascendant” thing I’ve been messing with. It’s a bit of a head-scratcher, but stick with me.
First off, I stumbled upon this astrology stuff, you know, the stars and planets and all that jazz. I started reading my own birth chart, trying to figure out what makes me tick. I saw this aspect called “sesquiquadrate” between my Sun and Ascendant, and I was like, “What the heck is that?”
So, I started digging. I read a bunch of stuff online. Some of it was all doom and gloom, talking about “challenges” and “difficulties.” But some of it made sense, talking about a “dynamic relationship” and “motivation for moving forward.” It seems like there is a push and pull energy between how I see myself and how I want to shine in the world.
Here’s how I went about it:
- Started with the basics: I figured out what my Sun sign and Ascendant sign actually meant.
- Looked for patterns: I started noticing times when I felt this tension. Like, I’d have this big idea (that’s my Sun, I guess), but then I’d clam up and not share it with anyone (that’s the Ascendant holding me back, maybe?).
- Tracked my feelings: I started writing down how I felt during these moments. Was I frustrated? Anxious? Excited but scared? You name it.
- Tried some experiments: I decided to push myself a little. Next time I had a big idea, I forced myself to share it, even if it was just with one person. Baby steps, you know?
- Noticed some change: I actually did feel a little better. It was almost like by acknowledging the tension, it wasn’t so scary anymore. I still have moments of doubt, but I’m starting to see how this whole “sun sesquiquadrate ascendant” thing can actually be a good thing.
- Some days are tough: I read somewhere that 8th and 12th house transits can be a real pain. And you know what? I think I felt that. Some days it was just hard to get out of bed, hard to feel motivated. But I reminded myself that it’s all part of the process.
It’s like I have this inner drive, this desire to be myself and express my individuality. But then there’s this other part of me that’s worried about what others will think, how I’ll be perceived. It’s a constant back and forth. This aspect is like being pulled in two directions at once. One side of me is ambitious and wanting to put myself out there, and the other side is reserved and wanting to keep things to myself.
Anyway, it’s a work in progress. I’m still figuring it all out. But I wanted to share my experience because I think it’s kinda cool how this astrology stuff can actually help you understand yourself better. It’s not about predicting the future or anything like that. It’s more about recognizing your own patterns and learning how to work with them, not against them. It’s about figuring out what the heck is going on inside and how to make it work for you.
It’s definitely been a journey, and I’m still on it. But I’m starting to see that this “challenging” aspect might actually be a source of strength. It’s all about finding that balance, you know? Learning to express myself authentically while still being mindful of how I come across to others. That’s all for my record.
