Okay, so, I’ve been messing around with this whole astrology thing lately, specifically looking at the “Sun square Pluto” aspect in my birth chart. It’s been, well, a ride, to say the least. I kept hearing about how this aspect brings intense transformations, and boy, were they right.
I started by digging into what this aspect even means. Apparently, it’s all about power struggles, control issues, and some deep, dark, psychological stuff. Not exactly light reading, you know? But it did resonate. I’ve always been a bit of a control freak, and I have a tendency to get, shall we say, a little intense in my relationships.
Diving into the Shadow
The first thing I did was to really look at myself – the good, the bad, and the ugly. It wasn’t pretty. I had to admit that I can be manipulative sometimes, especially when I feel like I’m losing control. And relationships? Yeah, I tend to go all in, which can be overwhelming for the other person. Plus, the whole fear of abandonment thing? Totally me. Always worried about people leaving, so I end up holding on too tight.
The thing about Pluto is that it’s all about digging up the stuff you’d rather keep buried. So, I started journaling like crazy, just trying to get all those messy thoughts and feelings out of my head. I also started talking to a therapist, which, let me tell you, has been a game-changer. It’s like having someone shine a flashlight into the darkest corners of your mind, helping you make sense of it all.
Relationships under the Microscope
My relationships, especially the romantic ones, have been the biggest area of focus. With the Sun square Pluto, they tend to be passionate, intense, and often a bit turbulent. I realized I needed to learn how to give people space, how to trust without needing to control, and how to be vulnerable without fearing that I’ll get hurt. No one likes to be controlled, right?
- It’s been a process, let me tell you.
- I am trying to change my way in relationships.
- I started by taking a step back, giving my partner some breathing room.
- It was tough, and we fight sometimes.
- But I feel better when I am in control.
- I am learning to be OK with things as they are.
- And now I am more aware of my behavior.
Embracing the Transformation
It’s not all doom and gloom, though. This whole Sun square Pluto thing has also pushed me to grow in ways I never thought possible. I’m becoming more self-aware, more resilient, and more in tune with my own power. It’s like I’m shedding old layers of myself and stepping into a more authentic version of who I am.
I won’t lie, it’s been a bumpy ride. There have been tears, arguments, and some serious soul-searching. But I honestly feel like I’m coming out of it stronger and more empowered. It’s like this aspect is forcing me to confront my demons and, in doing so, unlocking a whole new level of personal growth. And it is related to sex, which makes me feel so good.
So, yeah, that’s my journey with the Sun square Pluto aspect so far. It’s messy, it’s intense, but it’s also incredibly transformative. If you’ve got this aspect in your chart, buckle up – it’s going to be a wild ride, but it’s also an opportunity to become the best, most powerful version of yourself. Just remember to be patient, be kind to yourself, and don’t be afraid to ask for help along the way.
